This has nothing to do with knitting or yarn, but these were the words that came to the surface tonight while I was thinking of today’s terrible and heartbreaking events. I wanted to put them down someplace before they disappear from my mind.
As I peer into the darkness
and I try to fathom its unfathomable depths,
I am reminded of the saying,
“It’s always darkest before the dawn.”
I pray that the sun comes up soon
for I am starting to become afraid of the dark.
My yarn order came in from Knit Picks. Yay!
Now I have project ADD. I just started on a scarf for myself and now I got the yarn I need to work on the hat for my friend’s baby shower. Oh & I still want to make a few little bird rattles.
I’m the same way with books. I have a stack next to my bed of about 5 books, there’s one book on my new ereader and I’m expecting 2 pre-order books from Amazon in early April.
Ah well, such is the curse of the ADD knitter.
I got a job…yay? (I think. Mostly yay.)
Of course that means a few things. First and foremost, I have less time…for everything. My reduced time with the baby is already breaking my heart. My reduced time for knitting just makes me a little sad.
I’m hoping that once I get a handle on this new schedule of ours I can get back to knitting the scarf that I started for my sister. Plus I want to knit at least 1 scarf for the 2011 Special Olympics Winter Games. (I’ll tell you more about that project soon.)
For now though, it looks like I’m taking a mini knitting break. It won’t be too long though. As I may have mentioned once or twice before, not taking some time for myself and knitting makes me feel a bit stabby.
Two things I haven’t had much of lately. I want to knit! I want to sit myself down on the couch with my comfy blanket and my knitting and my cat and make something. A hat or a scarf maybe…or perhaps get really crazy and start figuring out how to make a sweater or a pair of socks.
Time eludes me. And ultimately, so does the inspiration. Even when I do have time, there are so many other things that need to get done. Laundry, cleaning, homework…sleep. I should excercise or at least take the baby for a walk. I should play with the cat. I HAVE TO FIND A JOB!! But I can’t seem to bring myself to do any of these things. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because of all the shoulds and have tos…I’ve never been good at doing what I’m told I have to do. Who knows?
I’m hoping to figure it out soon though. My life needs more inspiration….even if I can’t make more time.